Thursday, December 27, 2012

Shattered




Broken- I watch the sun as she sets, the distant fire extinguished in the iridescent horizon,
Mute- to what i witness, the torn landscape unfurls in anguished agony, 
Agape- at the worlds silence to the distant cries- dreams become real
Jaded- these dreams of innocence lost and circumstance cruel
Shattered- as i hold the pieces of me flying towards the yonder fire….

Sunday, April 22, 2012


The waves, lashing and whispering across the silent wind. The lights dim flickering in tune with the crescendo of hushed silence. My heart beats aflutter for the first time in what feels like an eternity. The world seemed like it was slowing down, to a heartbeat, the gentle breeze from the beating of the wings of the butterfly seemed to kiss upon my brow.
I saw what I wanted to see, and truth, reality and dreams intertwined- I traveled back in time to a happier place, a places that was devoid of the complexities of todays times. The tendrils of dark precipices threatened to invade, but the eyes focussed, and wanted the moment to be just the way it was. 
The flavour, I could taste the moment- I was in a space i wanted to escape to, the moment became the place i could escape to- to escape from the dredges of the mundane everyday life. I realized, that romance exists, insipid as it may be, and purposeless as it may sound, we need those moments of escapade to carry on with the nothingness that we fill our lives with. 
The flickering lights and the gentle shift of her auburn hair, and forlorn looks into the unknown, I saw the moment as i wanted to see- the world had come to a crawl, nothing seemed important any more, nothing except the savour the moment. Love and romance have died, innocence has been lost and we all grow up faster than we ought to. but maybe, in that fleeting moment, just as how a the dragonfly breaks free from her watery cage of youth, and for those brief moments of what seems like a life time for her, but a few days to me- the world seemed so much a better place than i make it to seem. to that person who made it possible, all i can say is thank you- for the my moment of escape for an evening that brought out the best in me for you.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

sinews

Sordid sullen sinewy snares 
darkness clouds upon my brow
murky mirth mirrored mire
i sink into its hallowed halls
no more broken hearts
no more eroded souls
battle eternal with want, hate, love and lust
my hands weep, my eyes cling,
and my heart skips,
wake me not from this iridescent darkness
let the gloaming sunlight  vanish 
and let the darkness wash away 
these insipid purposeless pipe dreams
of more broken hearts
of more eroded souls
sleep now, and wake never more
into dreamless slumber 
sordid sullen sinewy snares
dark clouds upon my brow

Friday, September 2, 2011

Surreal Music Videos

Going to start off  series of a list of my favorite music videos that have struck a chord at some level- mostly on the surreal-
to kick it off, one of my favorite videos- cocorosie's "Lemonade"



Monday, June 20, 2011

sans titre

The summer sun shines soberly,
Sharp Shadows shimmer solemnly,
Solitude sharply sweltering,
Sweat streams staining
Sobriety's Sweet scent;
Scream....

La Mienne

The passing sounds of cars echo through the empty halls, resonating- the path before is daunting, replete with forks and bends. Each passing minute lingers on like the morning dew on rose buds: behind me I hear sounds of the past beckoning me. Society calls, egging me on to choose.. I recall the simple nature of my childhood; books scattered, empty torn pages of prose and poems that defined each days passing. I seemed to live for others, fearing the scorn of friends upon non conformity to their rules. Solitude with each passing frame, is a welcome breath of air: to hide away into the void of anonymity. Do I seek recognition? I am glad to realise that it is not the case, for why would I want to be the object of society's obtuse scales of judgement. Public mouring they say, obsessive they called, strange- are we all mourning for each passing wake of life, trying to be something that we are not? The realisation that we are foolishly wading through the swamp and derelict waste that threatens to engulf us, is but a fleeting moment of relief. The dust settles, and yet, in a dark corner, I seem to await the knocking gables of acceptance and the open arms of friends. Upon this new found darkess that seemingly guides me, I welcome you with arms wide stretched. I seek nothingness... I seek the void, the tiny pocket universe within which I could just be ME...

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Dragonfly Dreams



Dragonfly Dreams
A journey to Eden…

Is this EDEN?

Eden itself is a journey. A journey into unknown waters and untold territories. A journey, into the mind.
The road to my Eden starts in Lyme Regis, on the Jurassic Coast to the South of England. It is here that, in addition to fond memories of cream teas coupled and fossil hunts that I managed to get a glimpse of what could be Eden.
I see a large boat moored off the Cobb. The Cobb itself, has now mutated to house the HMS Ark Royal, the once proud Flag ship of the Royal Navy- ironically a victim of not a traditional war, but an economical one that the world is now waging.
It is here that the journey begins, to the edge of the world, to the place that is least habited by us Humans- Greenland. Every two months, the Ark Royal begins an eight day voyage to the Greenland Coast- the decks that were once landing strips for aircraft, now an open camping zone – mirroring the colourful houses that dot Greenland. The massive hangars, are now houses a zoo of endangered species almost like the Ark of biblical lore.
Once there, we witness one of natures most awe-inspiring visual treats, the iceberg- massive mountains of ice that are floating around in the seas. Fear, awe, terror, intrigue, wonder- a myriad of mixed emotions will overflow as the Ark Royal prepares for its ritualistic firing of the tuglines- into these frozen behemoths.
At the same time, the longboats are then lowered and a chosen few will embark on a fishing journey… where the catch are these icebergs- with hemp nets woven on carbonfibre nets. The experience in tugging these frigid giants as they groan and rumble is one that cannot be described in words.
Another boat will leave, and should  you wish to go on it, you will discover that in exchange for the iceberg, the coast is wrapped with a shiny insulating material- to protect the coast from further degradation. As the sun shines on the frozen coast’s new skin, the landscape becomes alien, ethereal even, against the backdrop of the cold blue translucent ice.

Another six days pass, and you will return to Lyme, with the iceberg in tow, docking with the now extended arm of the Cobb. Like ants, an army of technicians and artists begin their work on the iceberg, as it slowly surrounds the Ark. Rope bridges connect the Ark to the now fragmented pieces of ice as they saddle back and forth, groaning as they slowly melt back into the sea. It is now that the second part of the journey begins….

Damp, and puddled, you shall feel, as you carefully step from plank to plank, onto the stripped portions of the hull that once was the Arks, now makeshift bridges and walkways in the space between the iceberg.
Ahead you see, one of these lumbering giants- as you hear it groaning and fizzling as it melts under the hot sun. There is little time left on this journey, as you enter a metallic cave- and at once you are bathed in darkness. Follow the light – and reach the end of the tunnel, for there may be hope yet. The light shall be elusive, just slipping out of your grasp when you reach it.
Keep moving, follow the light, and at once, you will be bathed in light of kaleidoscopic proportions- but you shall hear no sound.. just your heartbeat and the sound of you breathing. The groans are gone, the waves don’t roar anymore- the light makes you feel warm despite the freezing surroundings. Lie down if you like amidst the unearthly glow- there are blankets abound.
Should you move on, you will reach the pinnacle- but the journey ahead is a lot more arduous- but when you reach the final destination, you shall the horizon extend beyond into the infinite- and like me, I hope the doors of perception shall be cleansed- and everything appears to you, like it truly is- infinite.

You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?


But nothing lasts forever, nor should eden, the world around is defined by change, and journey itself is a change of place… True paradise exists, when, the mind loses interest with time and space; and begins to embrace the world around in the way it truly is.. limitless and immeasurable.
Imagine a world where we allow the chaos around us to spread and travel through our bodies- a constantly changing landscape , with the order in chaos swimming around us.
True beauty exists everywhere, as much in growth as in decay. As such, destruction is often the forerunner of creation: nothing can exist without an opposition, just like similarity cannot exist if we cannot spot differences.
Nothing can and should last forever, should it be so, the value declines.  The fleeting seconds of life in the dragon fly makes it experience the world in a different time and space than we do. 
Flowers bloom, wilt and decay, the brilliance of their short lives cannot be perceived without the realization that such beauty cannot last forever and to make most of life while it lasts.
Fleeting glimpses of beauty has far greater impact than being surrounded and flooded by it. Eden is this constantly changing and evolving place of infinite perception, filled with hues of bright lights dancing with my every step.
Beautiful lights, punctuated by shadows forming zebra like patterns on the ground like alternating brilliant incandescent fire and deep glowing lines. 
A world where the lights are brighter, purer- the shadows darker, menacing yet sensually appealing. 
Beautiful forms of varying complex geometry that infuses with glowing light that transports us to a higher transcendence; orchestrated by the infinite brilliance of colours and a never ending horizon that shines and bursts with joy.

Welcome to Eden.

Now please exit in an orderly fashion, before the ground you are standing on crumbles into the ocean…..